Sunday, 24 May 2015

The Ghost of My Board Results!!

It was a fateful day like any other normal weekday but with a twist. It was the #BoardResultsDay of 2010! I woke up, went to the bathroom when my phone rang. "Hey the results are out!". I was like you in that moment. A bit nervous, a bit scared. I was a good learner but somehow, I wasn't the cut to be on the top. I scored a 34 in Mathematics and a 95 in English!
(See, I said it! It was easy! ;p).

The two most extreme moments of my life. I was scared of my father of how will he the same time..secretly happy for my 95. It was a confusing moment. So I took up the courage to give him a call and spit out the fear. Nothing happened as per my expectations. I was wondering a great gala of scoldings, many taunting reverts but strangely, nothing happened. He listened to my scores and hung up. Since he said nothing, I had a pretty much of a jolly time that day. My overall percentage wasn't even in the 70s. I was a science student but I knew engineering wasn't my cup of tea. However, fact was, apart from knowing this, I was unaware of what do I want to do next? English Honors? Uhm....maybe...certainly. Because that's what I was good at. Right? I thought so.

The DU cut-offs were high mayn! It was the first year of CATE and frankly, I don't even remember my scores today. Seems like I have an Alzheimers for mathematics and some numbers. I got a chance to enter Gargi with Physics Honors and even in the evening shift of a college in South Campus. But "jis gali jaana nhn, wahan jhaank-kar kya fayeda?". Since it wasn't how I wanted my life to be, I didn't choose any of the options. I'm glad. Had to bid goodbye to the great Delhi University.

I you are right now. I was sad, I was troubled, my father didn't talk to me for years, my math scores were terrible, I attempted to harm myself and I practically did everything in my reach to come out of the "average" tag! Alas! I couldn't. Nothing changed in that time.

At last, on my birthday, a month later of the results, I got into Mass Communication. I was told to prove myself since my parents had to spend a fortune in my college fees. It was like a challenge I wanted to win. So, I topped 4 out of the 6 semesters and came second in one. Funnily, I even got debarred in one semester due to low attendance. Haha. Yet cleared all my exams and flew to the top again! I even topped my university twice in three years.

When I look back at all the fights I was a part of, all the times I thought nothing was worth it, and not to forget - having no one to hold my hand; I feel everything again and wonder- "Oh, how far have I come, yet I am still an average girl!". Yet, in spite of all the wrong things that I did or things which just happened on their own-

"I couldn't be more happier anywhere than where I am today!"

Today, I sit with the tag of an Editor in a reputed organization and I am happy, really happy. So just don't worry, everything that happens, happens for good! You may be dumb, you be a failure like me at some point of life. But you are the best of yourself. You tried your best, you gave your best and that's the process of growing up. I am proud of you and everyone who know they aren't too good to be a prodigy! And you will find a way out!

And one of the biggest reasons I wrote this is to tell you that your family loves you. No matter how harsh Dads and Moms are, people like us, the average ones, are also loved by some people around us. And in my case, I even have an added advantage, I've found the one who appreciates me for who I am. Loves me for who I am. I am glad I am alive. And I don't give a shit to the ghost of my board results :D

Best things happen at the right time fellas!! Just cling to that thought. xoxoxo

All the Best for the results,
Diary Dear!!

Wednesday, 6 May 2015

My Coach and Me!! ;)

Today the workout lasted for 20 minutes flat. We were late for our workplace so had to call it off. As read about DOMS, the pain remained to the butts today and vanished from the rest of the body. I am now a bit relaxed. The arms do pick some potential but relax on their own. I am liking the new regime. Just realized yesterday, that I have a tummy to tuck. Lolz. (People will faint hearing it.) But yes, it's the truth. :D A Beer Belly Yippppeeee!!!! :D That's healthy, isn't it? :P

I guess one thing that I can't ever skip in my diet is..uhm..a Pizza. :P I just can't. Niether chocolates nor beer. Oops. I guess the list has a few more entries. But please don't follow my diet chart, I have to put on weight and everything is safe until you don't overdo it so I stop whenever my tummy is full. :P I'm exercising, I need calories to burn! ;)

My coach added a new sprinting exercise to my fitness routine today. He said my muscles need to loosen up, stretch and relax before the exercise. Will help me to increase strength of the entire frame. So I guess there is another add on to my routine. Will be fun, will do it with him every morning. At least we can try to. (minus lazy ones). To be honest I feel a bit shy exercising in front of him. I've never done that before and it makes me nervous when I get noticed. A bit :P More so when I am not doing it with the right posture. *Sweat Drop*.

My water intake is rising gradually. I am hugely happy with this fact. But the best part was it didn't pain at all in my periods. Magical!! Not even for a second did I realize I was PMSing and bleeding. From the core of my heart I request all the Gulabi Gang and Feminists (No Offense) to go on an exercising morcha! It's gonna help you a lot. Mentally, Physically, Emotionally. Spare the men for some time. Ofcourse, to do it or not to do it, 'your choice'. :D

What?? you don't exercise???

Too Bad!
Diary Dear

You Wanna, We Wanna ..Yeahhhh,,,,Exercise! :D

I thought to write this blog after a week but then, women are a bit impatient. Aren't they? Last night's sleep was a spa! Relaxing and rejuvinating. Yet when I woke up, three not-so-good things happened. First was that I had hit DOMS! (it's Delayed Onset Muscle Soreness) so my body ached with most of the movements. Second, my fitness coach had developed a stye in his eye. And thirdly, I had to come to the office alone :( Not a preferable beginning to my mornings.

Oh yes, did I mention DOMS. This reminds me, that I am on an exercising spree. Fully motivated. Last morning I even did workout for 40 minutes including lunges, squats, push ups, pull ups, spiderman push ups and a few more to count. Even I am not too sure when did this new obsession erupted in my veins! Perhaps 2 nights back when in between the conversations my new coach, who happens to be my loving partner, made me do some muscle strengthening regimes. I was excited to try some more and so we switched to youtube where Joanna Soh gave me a good weekly set up to begin with.

I wasn't doing it to become fat or thin. I love myself. But I did it to feel fit from inside. Because since I did it last, my body called for more. I felt attracted to it. I guess that's how people get obsessed with gyms and fitness centers. They feel it from within that something is working upon their bodies. No doubt, looking better is on the cards anyways. I was entangled too. I loved that rush of blood in my body while doing the strengthening reps. That's why, my body is aching right now.

Anyhow, I'm loving it. Did a bit of stretching today as well with the help of my coach. Ouch! and I am still waiting for the next morning to begin my workout again. As I say, rest and eat to see the best show..a month into it and you will know! :D By the way, you should try it too.

(P.S. Get Well Soon Baby)

See you tomorrow,
Diary Dear